A New Life

I am in month three of living with a boyfriend for the first time. I moved out of my parents' house and quit my job in order to make this move. We're about two hours away from my family, I don't know anyone here, and I'm unemployed. I figured I could start blogging just to get everything I'm thinking out of my head.

I used to write in a journal fairly regularly but that stopped around the time I started college and I haven't been able to get back into the habit and I'm not sure why. I've been so against starting an online journal because it's not the same as having something you can hold. Yes, a blog can be neater and more uniform but that also struck me as boring. I like that all my journals reflect who I was at the time. The handwriting changes. The journal covers are vastly different from each other. But on the other hand, I hate that my handwriting has gotten sloppier and sloppier and my journal covers simpler and simpler.

Another thing that stopped me from getting a blog is that it can so easily be deleted. I've typed up my feelings during a certain time in my life and saved it on my computer. Months later, I read it and deleted it because I was over it. I know I can tear out pages of a diary just as easily, but I never have. I write it and put it away. Granted, I have no interest in what I wrote about during certain periods of time, but it's still there. In the book. Under my bed.

But hey, I'll try it.

Boy Sweet and I have been living together since September 5. Things are going well. I stayed with him every weekend for about a year before we moved so it's kind of the same. We both have gained weight during this time. We just eat more when we're together. When we're alone, we both skip meals and just eat when we're hungry. But when we're together, I think we feel responsible in ensuring that the other eats breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I never do that alone. I also think my idea of normal portion sizes have gotten bigger and bigger. I eat as much as he does which is not good. So, to stop that, I've been using the smaller plates. We've also stopped eating dinner together so often since he never used to by himself.

Oh! We've been playing New Super Mario Bros. Wii and it's pretty fun. I love that you just move left to right. I'm not a fan of video games really but I really don't like the games where you can look at things from every angle. It's too much for my non-coordinated head. We yell a lot while we play it because we're always accidentally killing each other but I'm trying to stop (yelling and killing him). AND he totally doesn't trust me! If he doesn't know what to do in the game, I tell him where to go or whatever and he won't do it! Terrible. :)