I just want to cry

I can't find a job. I just want to cry and have my boyfriend comfort me without offering a solution. He makes it seem like it's easy to find a job so it just makes me angry on top of being sad. I'm very down. I like routine. Nothing I have right now is routine. I don't even eat regularly which is probably contributing to my lethargy. I feel like I'm becoming more and more isolated. By choice, though. Not only outwardly but inside my head as well. I feel addicted to things that keep me from thinking-- Internet and TV. When I'm on the toilet, I read a book. During the day when I'm alone and there's nothing on TV and I can't find anything to read on the Internet, I sleep. At night, when I lay in bed is the only time I actually think. And I don't like it. But I do it because I want to go to bed at the same time as my bf.